The stories you hear about Alaska and it being dark in the winter is true. In Fairbanks, it never got completely dark. The sunrise before noon and set around one. It does get dark and it gets hard. Darkness can be overwhelming. It seems to consume everything. The darkness seems to eat everything. It leaves you feeling kinda hopeless. Darkness is very awful. It's hard to live with that much darkness. It left me feeling very depressed and many days I didn't want to do anything the dark just sucks the life out of you. Then the light comes back very slowly. Then there's too much of it. It's starts to overwhelm. It's really weird to roll over at 3am and the sun be fully up and then when you are going to bed after 10pm the sun isn't even thinking about going down.
What this does to a person can be awful. The dark sucks life and that much light really mess with ones head. So how do you deal? I don't have an answer. In fact, I didn't deal very well. I spent many days in my pjs wanting to do things and not having the motivation to do it. The light seems to overwhelm and I don't know how to respond. I'm totally over stimulated by it. I don't really know who to respond to this much light. Balance is a good thing. However, I need to learn how to balance is such an off balanced world. I really failed at this year, but I'm going to give it another try.
